Just another Bowl of Ramen...

Here I sit with the lights dimmed, only the blue lights on. I'm sitting in my chair, attempting to share whats on my heart. I am thankful for my food. Compared to many people a bowl of ramen when I feel like it is a feast for a king. I wonder about the homeless... it is so cold out side, and I'm in a t shirt with no socks or shoes on. I am eating a bowl of ramen noodles... people are starving... I feel like I have no money, the fifteen dollars in my wallet could buy a lot of ramen for people... or coffee or a decent meal.... or a few shirts or pants... gloves..... I could buy a bible for someone who doesn't have one. I could take a struggling friend out for coffee... I could do a lot of things...

I'm sitting at my computer....how many dollar meny items could that buy..... I am listening to music.... what I want to hear when I want to hear it.... Talking to My friends.... in My room.... What makes a person think that the man Jesus told to sell everything he had was wicked for being upset when Jesus said that? I know that it is easy to say Yeah I could do that.... For Jesus....If I had too...

Would I be sad? If I had to give up my computer, tv, cell phone, 2-3 meals a day (exchange for 2-3 meals a week)my guitar, my car, my comfy bed, my blankets...would I be sad? I would be distraught....

I'm on my second bowl of ramen....


I want to move for people... I want to be like Jesus. I want to give my all... everything.... whether that means selling it all or giving to all..... or whatever Jesus tells me to do..... I'm there

In Christ

Chris Nelson

Sorry guys...
i know that I annoy a lot of people... I guess I have a hard time just being me... I am not looking for sympathy...

Truth is, I am not sure how to be me. I can act dumb, I can act like I think that I know something, I can act like I almost have a clue.... I don't and I know that it is probably evident. I came to bluffton hoping to actually take advantage of the second chance with people. Starting over... starting new.... Turns out I am still fake. I want to actually be real but I have never been allowed. I know johnny hates the book, but wild at heart helped me realize that I wasn't born to be annoying, I wasn't born to chases everyone away. I was born to be the way that my heart is. I am sorry... I do not want to be this way...